Monday, August 29, 2016
Went to the store tonight and picked all of the grocery's for the week. My Wife is at Hot Yoga and I will probably cook her dinner when she comes home. As hungry as I am that is going to be a bit of a challenge. I will try not to lick my fingers when I am cutting the roasted chicken I just picked up. It smells incredible.
Tomorrow begins College football with the first game for Louisville at 7:30PM. I am heading down to tailgate around 12 or 1 with my Son and few friends. I picked up some V8 Juices and Unsweetened Almond Milk for breakfast. I plan to eat tomorrow and most certainly drink a beer or three while tailgating. Not really sure how my body will handle it so I will take it slow. Hopefully everything sits well and I can have a good time without stressing about this little experiment of mine.
My ride last night was slow but I had no plans of pacing so not that big of a deal. It was 95 degrees out and humidity was maxed out which made it a bit tougher. I opted to ride a new route since I knew there a chance I might want to stop a couple of times along the way. The first 6 miles was basically flat but the second 6 included 3 long climbs including one that was just over a mile long. It was tough in the heat and no tree cover to shade me from the sun. The good thing was that I was of the only ones dumb enough to be out so I think I only passed 4 or 5 people along the route. I am glad I did not go to the other park which would have been busy with traffic and people as it always is no matter the weather.
Last night I had some major hunger pains around 7:30, roughly an hour after returning from my ride. Lasted longer than I would have hoped at 9:30 or so. Ended up getting a bit of my second wind around then and could not sleep. Went to bed hoping to just end the day but ended up being awake until just past midnight.
This morning, I drove my daughter to her carpool and she wanted a hash brown and drink from McDonald's. No issues there, never been high on fast food anyway so not to hard to pass on the breakfast. However, our Office Manager just showed up with donuts, ughh. I don't really have a sweet tooth but I love me some donuts. Finished my work up front and hustled back to my office where I will likely hide for the remainder of the day.
So here we go into day 3, I have a feeling this may be the toughest as I am switching over to ketones for fuel. My body is not used to it yet and tonight's planned run may be my worst yet. Don't plan to push at all, just need to be outside and will likely go on a trail run as I enjoy running through the woods much more than on pavement. Plus the soft turf is much easier on my joints, improves ankle flexibility and strengthens my small fast twitch muscles in my feet.
Last thing, my tire developed "multiple" sidewall holes from a trip to a pretty technical mountain biking trail. Tried to fix it but went flat again almost right away. Ordered a new one on Sunday and should have it in the mail tomorrow! Woo Hoo!!! Also ordered a couple of other upgrades that I am hoping helps with the fit on the bike a bit by reducing my reach to the bars.
Stayed up a little later than I hoped and I did get hungry closer to bedtime. Was hoping to go to bed around 9 so I could just end the day as soon as possible. Ended up staying up until 11:30 and woke up about 5ish, which has been more typical lately anyway.
Oddly, I have not had any hunger this morning but as I started to type this I have been feeling pretty hungry and stomach is getting a little demanding. Weight was down 5lbs from yesterday and I realize this is all water as I spent a little more than typical amount of time in the restroom.
Overall, I am feeling pretty good and my resolve to finish 3 days is increasing. I feel like if I make it through today I should be good to go on day 3. Planning a bike ride tonight, going to go to a local park with a goal of 21 miles (3 laps), but will cut it short depending on how I am feeling.
So it's day one and I am already filled with excitement and a slight hint of dread. It's odd that as soon as I started typing this post I suddenly felt hungry where I have not been hungry all morning. Food is a powerful drug.
Plan today, focus on water consumption and exercise. I need to find something positive to replace my hunger pains. No idea what that might be but we will see.
Regarding my health, I am up 40 lbs from 2012, I cannot imagine there is any real health risk with the amount of fat I have to lose. My body should start provide ketones so I can start breaking down fat for fuel in the next 48 hours. By day 3 I should feel my energy return be ready by day 4 to be ready and adjusted for the next phase.
Wish me luck.
Tuesday, May 3, 2016
When he got on the scale for all to see that evening, Dec. 8, 2009, he weighed just 191 pounds, down from 430. Dressed in a T-shirt and knee-length shorts, he was lean, athletic and as handsome as a model.
“I’ve got my life back,” he declared. “I mean, I feel like a million bucks.”
Mr. Cahill left the show’s stage in Hollywood and flew directly to New York to start a triumphal tour of the talk shows, chatting with Jay Leno, Regis Philbin and Joy Behar. As he heard from fans all over the world, his elation knew no bounds.
But in the years since, more than 100 pounds have crept back onto his 5-foot-11 frame despite his best efforts. In fact, most of that season’s 16 contestants have regained much if not all the weight they lost so arduously. Some are even heavier now...
Full Article NY Times
Posted by Batlou at 4:39 AM
Monday, November 10, 2014
As I sat there alone I tried to go through what she might have asked or said and why I would have responded with OK. I racked my brain and could not figure out what had just happened. I am sure every guy has been in the situation before, I know this was certainly not the first time I had done something like this.
A little background, my Wife and I have been together for 21 years and married 19, we have 2 kids(18 and 14) and stay pretty busy with both work and taking care of the family matters. While I am a bit older we both married pretty young and had our first child 4 days after our 1 year anniversary. This left us little time to really grow together as a couple as we were almost immediately submersed in parenthood and all that it entails.
But I digress, so there I was, still sitting in my spot on the couch trying for the life of me to figure out what she said so that I can somehow justify my completely appropriate response. Then it occurred to me that I am looking at this all wrong. Instead of questioning why I was not listening in the first place I am spending time trying to validate my response.
I just dismissed the most important person in my life without regard. When did I become that guy? What steps along the way lead me down this path? I used to be the sensitive guy that could stay up all night listening to her fears and triumphs and share in her joys and sorrows. I used to be a romantic, hell I once surprised her by picking her up in a limo with her bags packed and we were whisked away to a bed and breakfast for an evening away from the kids. Now a romantic evening out is dinner at a crappy chain restaurant and then back home where we sit on opposite ends of our sectional couch and play on our tablets/computers while the TV plays back recordings of missed sitcoms. WTF!
Sure we share a lot of fun together. We both enjoy going to football and basketball games. A night out with friends while watching a game is fun as well. However, have I missed an opportunity to connect deeper with someone that has meant so much to me over the past 20 years because I have been inattentive? We have often talked about how much we love each other and I don’t question that for even a second. I know without question that I love her with all my being. So how is it possible that a person I care about so deeply can be so easily dismissed? Well if I knew the answer to that it would not be 3AM and I would be sound asleep. Instead I sitting here alone still trying to not only understand how I got here but how I find my way back to where I was.
Soon our kids will both be gone and we will be alone together more often than not. What will we do together without the kids as a buffer? What will we talk about? It’s easy to assume that we will talk about our day at work or what the latest headline is. Small talk like that is engaging for a period of time but what then? We used to talk about deeper issues, what drives us, subjects that were real and emotional not water cooler talk.
When I had this epiphany my knee jerk reaction was to immediately go wake her up and apologize. I have apologized before, it’s not that hard, right? Then I wanted to write down what I was thinking so that I could make sure I got it right. As it turns out, not much to make note of. “Hey honey, sorry I was being a complete asshole by not listening to you, blah blah blah”. Really? Not worth the words written much less spoken if I am not really examining why I ignored her in the first place. So I started writing this post because somehow this is way better. Maybe because it’s late, speaking to an imagined audience is an easy way to convey my message to her while remaining somewhat detached from the speaker so I can still be objective. I am beginning to ramble so I will get to the point so I can get some sleep.
I love my Wife with all my heart and soul and because I love her I am going to make a concerted effort to understand how I got here and find my way back. I don’t think I am naive enough to believe this will be easy as it has taken me 20 years to become an asshole. My goal is to be better today, hmm, that's got a nice ring. Of course now comes the hard part. Where do I start? How do I put my thoughts tonight into real measurable actions tomorrow so that I can be “better today”. I know one thing, I won’t ask her, I believe there may be word count limit to a singular blog post. Haha. Wait, does that count as insensitive? Dammit, did I mention that lack self awareness also.
Perhaps a simple list to start.
- 1 Start Listening, seems simple enough right? Not really, when I say listen I mean truly engage in the conversation. Put away the distractions and make sure she knows that what she has to say is important to me.
This is harder than I thought, I seem to be stuck on #1 since that’s what this was all about. Got it…
- 2. Stop trying to lead the conversation. WTF does that mean? I know, like most men, when she begins to tell me a story my immediate reaction is to figure out how to dissect it, begin breaking it down and then guide her to a point where I can offer a resolution. I have no idea how to stop doing this yet because I do this for a living as well, solving problems that is. So guiding people to a point in a conversation where there is a defined issue, solution with a measurable outcome and steps to monitor progress is part of who I am.
- 3. This is an extension of #2 but I need to stop playing devil’s advocate. If she is just venting then I don’t think she really cares what the other persons perspective is and certainly does not need me to suggest that her logic could be very well be flawed.
- 4. Don’t be critical. Just because I break down everything I do into their smallest possible parts looking for the flaws and then consider how it could have been more effective had I done something different does not mean anyone else enjoys this. Without question I am very critical of myself and I consider this healthy and only serves to improve myself. If you are reading this post then you are probably catching the irony at about the same point in this post that I just did just now.
- 5. Avoid assumptions. The reality is that we have been married for a long time and I know that it’s easy to be listening to a story and begin to make assumptions where it’s going based on prior experience. Because our brains are wired to process data faster than we can verbalize it I believe we space out a bit once we have determined were we believe this conversation is going. Now instead of listening to the whole story I am already working on my response. Got to fix that somehow.
Phew, 5 things was harder to come up with than I would have thought. I think this is a good start and I don’t expect to wake up tomorrow morning after what will now amount to 2.5 hours of sleep. I am a living breathing creature full of flaws and this list is organic as it should be. I would expect some improvement and regression over time. My goal each morning is to be “Better Today” and will be my mantra moving forward. The realist in me knows that it will not always be attainable but as long as I am making sure she knows I love her and I do care then I figure there is no down side to this effort.
Love you always darling and know that I while I don’t always say it in words or actions my heart still flutters when I think about how much you mean to me.
It’s late and I am not proofreading shit tonight. I am also aware that this post has nothing to do with physical health but it is completely possible that by improving our emotional well being I may parley that into some physical improvements. Mind and Body, right? Time for sleep.
Posted by Batlou at 1:00 PM