Monday, August 29, 2016

The 3 Day Fast

So here we go, I was thinking about what I am going to do about this weight gain and since I have run out of excuses to keep gaining what is my next move. Well, this morning I woke up and thought about fasting for 3 days to flush the muck and maybe the negativity out of my system.

So it's day one and I am already filled with excitement and a slight hint of dread. It's odd that as soon as I started typing this post I suddenly felt hungry where I have not been hungry all morning. Food is a powerful drug.

Plan today, focus on water consumption and exercise. I need to find something positive to replace my hunger pains. No idea what that might be but we will see.

Regarding my health, I am up 40 lbs from 2012, I cannot imagine there is any real health risk with the amount of fat I have to lose. My body should start provide ketones so I can start breaking down fat for fuel in the next 48 hours. By day 3 I should feel my energy return be ready by day 4 to be ready and adjusted for the next phase.

Wish me luck.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Biggest Loser Contestants Post Competition Struggle is Real according to study.

Danny Cahill stood, slightly dazed, in a blizzard of confetti as the audience screamed and his family ran on stage. He had won Season 8 of NBC’s reality television show “The Biggest Loser,” shedding more weight than anyone ever had on the program — an astonishing 239 pounds in seven months.

When he got on the scale for all to see that evening, Dec. 8, 2009, he weighed just 191 pounds, down from 430. Dressed in a T-shirt and knee-length shorts, he was lean, athletic and as handsome as a model.

“I’ve got my life back,” he declared. “I mean, I feel like a million bucks.”

Mr. Cahill left the show’s stage in Hollywood and flew directly to New York to start a triumphal tour of the talk shows, chatting with Jay Leno, Regis Philbin and Joy Behar. As he heard from fans all over the world, his elation knew no bounds.

But in the years since, more than 100 pounds have crept back onto his 5-foot-11 frame despite his best efforts. In fact, most of that season’s 16 contestants have regained much if not all the weight they lost so arduously. Some are even heavier now...
Full Article NY Times

Thursday, November 5, 2015

2015-2016 Winter Training Plan

Monday, November 10, 2014

Better Today

Last night I was sitting on the couch, watching TV and surfing the web.  My Wife was telling me a story or asking me a question and I responded with an answer of “OK”.  I am not even sure what she said or why I thought saying OK was an appropriate response.  When she pointed out that I could not have listening because my response made no sense I immediately went on the defensive.  She retreated to the bedroom and went to sleep while I remained glued to my computer and in the opposite room.

As I sat there alone I tried to go through what she might have asked or said and why I would have responded with OK.  I racked my brain and could not figure out what had just happened.  I am sure every guy has been in the situation before, I know this was certainly not the first time I had done something like this.

A little background, my Wife and I have been together for 21 years and married 19, we have 2 kids(18 and 14) and stay pretty busy with both work and taking care of the family matters.  While I am a bit older we both married pretty young and had our first child 4 days after our 1 year anniversary.  This left us little time to really grow together as a couple as we were almost immediately submersed in parenthood and all that it entails.

But I digress, so there I was, still sitting in my spot on the couch trying for the life of me to figure out what she said so that I can somehow justify my completely appropriate response.  Then it occurred to me that I am looking at this all wrong.  Instead of questioning why I was not listening in the first place I am spending time trying to validate my response. 

I just dismissed the most important person in my life without regard.  When did I become that guy?  What steps along the way lead me down this path?  I used to be the sensitive guy that could stay up all night listening to her fears and triumphs and share in her joys and sorrows.  I used to be a romantic, hell I once surprised her by picking her up in a limo with her bags packed and we were whisked away to a bed and breakfast for an evening away from the kids.  Now a romantic evening out is dinner at a crappy chain restaurant and then back home where we sit on opposite ends of our sectional couch and play on our tablets/computers while the TV plays back recordings of missed sitcoms.  WTF!

Sure we share a lot of fun together.  We both enjoy going to football and basketball games.  A night out with friends while watching a game is fun as well.  However, have I missed an opportunity to connect deeper with someone that has meant so much to me over the past 20 years because I have been inattentive?  We have often talked about how much we love each other and I don’t question that for even a second.  I know without question that I love her with all my being.  So how is it possible that a person I care about so deeply can be so easily dismissed?  Well if I knew the answer to that it would not be 3AM and I would be sound asleep.  Instead I sitting here alone still trying to not only understand how I got here but how I find my way back to where I was.

Soon our kids will both be gone and we will be alone together more often than not.  What will we do together without the kids as a buffer? What will we talk about?  It’s easy to assume that we will talk about our day at work or what the latest headline is.  Small talk like that is engaging for a period of time but what then?  We used to talk about deeper issues, what drives us, subjects that were real and emotional not water cooler talk.

When I had this epiphany my knee jerk reaction was to immediately go wake her up and apologize.  I have apologized before, it’s not that hard, right?  Then I wanted to write down what I was thinking so that I could make sure I got it right.  As it turns out, not much to make note of.  “Hey honey, sorry I was being a complete asshole by not listening to you, blah blah blah”.  Really?  Not worth the words written much less spoken if I am not really examining why I ignored her in the first place.  So I started writing this post because somehow this is way better.  Maybe because it’s late, speaking to an imagined audience is an easy way to convey my message to her while remaining somewhat detached from the speaker so I can still be objective.  I am beginning to ramble so I will get to the point so I can get some sleep.

I love my Wife with all my heart and soul and because I love her I am going to make a concerted effort to understand how I got here and find my way back.  I don’t think I am naive enough to believe this will be easy as it has taken me 20 years to become an asshole.  My goal is to be better today, hmm, that's got a nice ring.  Of course now comes the hard part.  Where do I start?  How do I put my thoughts tonight into real measurable actions tomorrow so that I can be “better today”.  I know one thing, I won’t ask her, I believe there may be word count limit to a singular blog post.  Haha.  Wait, does that count as insensitive?  Dammit, did I mention that lack self awareness also.

Perhaps a simple list to start. 

  1. 1     Start Listening, seems simple enough right?  Not really, when I say listen I mean truly engage in the conversation.  Put away the distractions and make sure she knows that what she has to say is important to me.

This is harder than I thought, I seem to be stuck on #1 since that’s what this was all about.  Got it…
  1. 2.    Stop trying to lead the conversation.  WTF does that mean?  I know, like most men, when she begins to tell me a story my immediate reaction is to figure out how to dissect it, begin breaking it down and then guide her to a point where I can offer a resolution.  I have no idea how to stop doing this yet because I do this for a living as well, solving problems that is.  So guiding people to a point in a conversation where there is a defined issue, solution with a measurable outcome and steps to monitor progress is part of who I am.

  1. 3.     This is an extension of #2 but I need to stop playing devil’s advocate.  If she is just venting then I don’t think she really cares what the other persons perspective is and certainly does not need me to suggest that her logic could be very well be flawed.

  1. 4.     Don’t be critical.  Just because I break down everything I do into their smallest possible parts looking for the flaws and then consider how it could have been more effective had I done something different does not mean anyone else enjoys this.  Without question I am very critical of myself and I consider this healthy and only serves to improve myself.  If you are reading this post then you are probably catching the irony at about the same point in this post that I just did just now.

  1. 5.     Avoid assumptions.  The reality is that we have been married for a long time and I know that it’s easy to be listening to a story and begin to make assumptions where it’s going based on prior experience.  Because our brains are wired to process data faster than we can verbalize it I believe we space out a bit once we have determined were we believe this conversation is going.  Now instead of listening to the whole story I am already working on my response.  Got to fix that somehow.

Phew, 5 things was harder to come up with than I would have thought.  I think this is a good start and I don’t expect to wake up tomorrow morning after what will now amount to 2.5 hours of sleep.  I am a living breathing creature full of flaws and this list is organic as it should be.  I would expect some improvement and regression over time.  My goal each morning is to be “Better Today” and will be my mantra moving forward.  The realist in me knows that it will not always be attainable but as long as I am making sure she knows I love her and I do care then I figure there is no down side to this effort.

Love you always darling and know that I while I don’t always say it in words or actions my heart still flutters when I think about how much you mean to me.

It’s late and I am not proofreading shit tonight.  I am also aware that this post has nothing to do with physical health but it is completely possible that by improving our emotional well being I may parley that into some physical improvements.  Mind and Body, right?  Time for sleep.




Friday, October 18, 2013

Mount Rogers Backpacking Trip

Mount Rogers

A little late to post but its been a busy week. I had a 3 day backpacking trip planned and went off plan a bit by eating Ramen(sp) Noodles for 2 meals. Not the best choice but they were delicious mixed with some bagged chicken and beef on a cold rainy day at evening camp.

Legs are a little tight and feet a bit sore as I did not anticipate how rocky the terrain would be on this trip. It certainly made for a slow going hike to each of the days planned camps.

Back on plan immediately upon return and things seem to be trending down. Hopefully next Monday's weigh-in is more of the same.  Either way I am happy that my weight is leading with a "1" again.  I am still amazed at how quickly things went south with my fitness after taking my eye off the ball for such a short time.  165 here I come!  


See below for a few of my favorite photo's from our trip.  It was overcast and raining other than the first couple of hours that we arrived.  Which was a bit of a disappointment since these mountains are at roughly 5600 feet and mostly void of trees at the top offering spectacular views of Virginia.  Oh well, sometimes things just don't work out as you planned.

On On


My Crew preparing to head out for day 2.


A strange looking tree at the top of the mountain.

No camera filter required.  This is what the scene was like for bulk of our trip.

An early morning visitor to our campsite on day 2.  I had no idea their were cattle at the top and it startled me a bit at first.

A friend of mine trying to get a shot of a particularly curious foal.  Mom and Dad were nearby but had no interest in our presence.







Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Destroy What Destroys You!

Start Date: 10/07/2013
Begin Weight: 203 -- Ackk!
Current Weight: 203
Goal Weight: 165

Well there it is, it's official I am no longer below 200 lbs.  For whatever reason I have lost the motivation and struggled most of the summer trying to find it.  After a weekend of excess I reluctantly stepped on the scale to find that my weight no longer begins with a 1 but rather a 2!  WTF!

I believe that I have been so busy patting myself on the back for my successes that I lost sight of how I got there.  My eating habits have devolved to the typical foods that got me to 300 several years ago.  The worst part is that I know I am not making good choices just based on how generally shitty I have felt for the last 6 months or so.

Exercise has been tapering off as well with workouts only coming 3 times per week with an occasional mountain bike ride.  The only thing that has got me out running is trying to keep up with my Wife, whom is kicking ass btw.  So proud of her and love her company on my runs, it's the highlight of my week.

So here I am, while I have a feeling that a large part of the weight is just bloat from to much beer and chili camping this weekend and will quickly drop off but I really need to get back down to that 175 range and possibly lower.  Running at 200 blows, my joints, feet and back are all pissed about it.

I am on day 3 of induction right now and already feeling better.  I am going to try and limit weigh-ins to once a week, no promises as I am rather addicted to the scale.

It's interesting that after living unhealthy for so many years I had adapted to that lifestyle and feeling like shit all of the time felt normal.  Now that I have adjusted my "normal" to something better I am able to recognize that my body is screaming for my attention.  I need to find my normal again.

Throughout each phase of my weight loss journey I have taken on a mantra that has helped me stay focused when I wanted to give up.  I feel like my body is telling me that I not only need to get my shit together but that it's destroying me not only physically and emotionally.  So there it is, "Destroy What Destroy's You!".

On On

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Modern wheat a "perfect, chronic poison," doctor says


Picked up this article and thought I would share here along with the accompanying video.
(CBS News) Modern wheat is a "perfect, chronic poison," according to Dr. William Davis, a cardiologist who has published a book all about the world's most popular grain.
Davis said that the wheat we eat these days isn't the wheat your grandma had: "It's an 18-inch tall plant created by genetic research in the '60s and '70s," he said on "CBS This Morning." "This thing has many new features nobody told you about, such as there's a new protein in this thing called gliadin. It's not gluten. I'm not addressing people with gluten sensitivities and celiac disease. I'm talking about everybody else because everybody else is susceptible to the gliadin protein that is an opiate. This thing binds into the opiate receptors in your brain and in most people stimulates appetite, such that we consume 440 more calories per day, 365 days per year."
Asked if the farming industry could change back to the grain it formerly produced, Davis said it could, but it would not be economically feasible because it yields less per acre. However, Davis said a movement has begun with people turning away from wheat - and dropping substantial weight.
"If three people lost eight pounds, big deal," he said. "But we're seeing hundreds of thousands of people losing 30, 80, 150 pounds. Diabetics become no longer diabetic; people with arthritis having dramatic relief. People losing leg swelling, acid reflux, irritable bowel syndrome, depression, and on and on every day."
To avoid these wheat-oriented products, Davis suggests eating "real food," such as avocados, olives, olive oil, meats, and vegetables. "(It's) the stuff that is least likely to have been changed by agribusiness," he said. "Certainly not grains. When I say grains, of course, over 90 percent of all grains we eat will be wheat, it's not barley... or flax. It's going to be wheat.
"It's really a wheat issue."
Some health resources, such as the Mayo Clinic, advocate a more balanced diet that does include wheat. But Davis said on "CTM" they're just offering a poor alternative.
"All that literature says is to replace something bad, white enriched products with something less bad, whole grains, and there's an apparent health benefit - 'Let's eat a whole bunch of less bad things.' So I take...unfiltered cigarettes and replace with Salem filtered cigarettes, you should smoke the Salems. That's the logic of nutrition, it's a deeply flawed logic. What if I take it to the next level, and we say, 'Let's eliminate all grains,' what happens then?
"That's when you see, not improvements in health, that's when you see transformations in health."
Watch Davis' full interview in the video above.
Source:  http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-505269_162-57505149/modern-wheat-a-perfect-chronic-poison-doctor-says/